You know at times , when u feel the butterfly in stomach
sometimes , ure about to perform and your nervous
or , u just did something so terrible and ure worried
OR , u miss someone soo badly , u are worried for them
OR , ur having a stomach ache (haha)

ok , i just experinced all those 4 in one day
typical eyhh , and it had to be on a sunday
but honestly , im not saying that im haveing a bad day or something
instead , yesterday totally rock , i cant really mention wad
happened , but just be prepared for something that
u think it will never happen

ok fine , obviously u wont understand , one day u will get me
i really dun care wad will ppl say to me now
go ahead scream at me , GUESS WAD , I WONNT CARE
maybe its time ...

im making this confessions now , i cant just keep it inside all the
time and do nothing about it eyh? i'll make the move then ,
its rather difficult to forget about ur loved ones ey , even though
they are gone and ure supposed to move one
at times , its even difficult to forget about the mistakes u have
done to them , wheter alive or dead . im being honest now , and
if ure reading this , im telling u , im still not over with u
its been nearly one year, and all i do is kept quiet..
worst of all , made worser mistakes .. i seriously feel that
FARHAN sec 3 suck , yeah .. thats like one of the worst
FARHAN ive ever had , ive been keeping quiet for too long
having this mix feelings REALLY SUCK! Sometimes i feel , go for it
then the other minute , DONT .. i cant make those kind of decisions again
i have to get it straigt , its either yes or no .. lately i lost my
phone , so i cant really try to do anything , except
if i see u in school and at least say HI
u noe how happy i was , that u turned and smile
i missed ur voice , i wish i could get things straight with u
but , everytime i go closer to you i go , let say , guilty
im sorry .. i noe its been a long time but i didnt really manage to said
how much i really missed you , and thats it , the realtionship end
but i noe , if u didnt end it , ill still be the jerk i used to be
u made me realise how jerky , freaky i get
i wish i could turn back in time and slap that FARHAN!
u noe, after i made my prayers , i will always wished only for ur happiness
if we werent meant for each other , all i wanted is to see u smile
the tears in my ears roll down the cheeks everytime i think
even of the smallest mistakes i had made
u really did change my way of life
THANK YOU =)

Labels: the old FARHAN =(